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Everything posted by Emma
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Welcome to Asylum where integrity has been left outside to rot
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I didn't even realize that, that made me smile =D
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Oh I know but I've never had a problem with you Kettles, ^-^ we've always had a good time together and I missed playing with the good Tunnel Snake players
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Meh, doesn't bother me to be quite honest, rather be transparent with people.
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Pretty much, in the past, I've just up and left for awhile without any ifs or buts and I rather not hide anything anymore if I do come back
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I guess that's a word to call it, an introduction for someone who has been around since February of 2016. I've seen the ups and downs of this community, made good friends (Love all of you guys) and made enemies as well (Fuck all you guys). The ups were good, the downs sucked, and everything in the middle was a mosh pit of jokes, laughing, giggling, dying, one taps, dying some more, and 3rd person peeking on bank... Dying was a common thing for me during my Asylum days, and it made it a lot of fun. I joined the server nearly 2 years ago and it was a blast, it was new and ArmA was a really cool game. I had a brand new gaming computer that I built myself and I was proud of it and it's been right there during the shit that's gone down on this server. The APD was one of the best things for me to take on, it was fun, it was serious, and I've learned a few things along the way and made some very close acquaintances and enemies all the same. I started playing under the alias Patrick James, my first name and my middle name, then started copying names from ArmA 3 AI like Andrew MacKinnon to name one of the ones I still recall. Then I started going by Padric, my Irish variation of my name as well as a last name that was so fucking hard to pronounce and spell, I didn't have the time to copy/paste it. But this isn't about the role I put on but the mask I've worn for many years of my life. Last May, after a long struggle of self identity, questions, crying, more crying, and nights where I couldn't sleep, it finally came clear to me and the closet door opened so to speak... I came out, and it was even more crying, questions, and long nights after that because fear of the unknown sucks. I didn't come out as gay or bisexual, something that our society is coming to understand and accept more and more, I came out as transgender... I came out as Emma... and goddamn it was both a relief and an overwhelming sense of what's next. For a few months I went to see a therapist to discuss my life and who I saw myself as and more importantly, who I wanted to be. My next goal was hormones, it was a long, scary road with fluffy clouds and rainbows at the end, I just had to get there and finally, I did. On September 19, 2017, I began my official transition from Patrick to Emma and it's been eye opening for me to say the least. We often bash people with depression, who are gay or bi or many of the other sexuality, who believe themselves to be this gender or that gender. We say that they have mental disorders or are less of a person and should be treated as such and we often treat them as lesser individuals. We treat people who have no idea who they are as a physical person and make them feel even less so, driving them to do unspeakable things to themselves and those around them. I'm not making a plea for everyone to be nice to others, but to keep this Forum clean and keep the shit I've already heard out of this chat. I'm opening up to this community because everyone here (mostly) has crossed my path once in-while and we've shared experiences that I still remember to this day. At the end of the day, Asylum was my family for 1,500 hours of my life, this community of squeakers, degenerates, nobodies, somebodies, killers, dealers, escapees, and straight up motherfucking career cops, are all my friends and my virtual family. I might be back, I've been on hiatus for several months now, losing my rank as Corporal in the APD and being, once again, a constable. As a transgender girl, I often hear the term of my "dead" name but I'm not dead, its simply my "old" name, who I was before I finally found myself. "Patrick" isn't dead, that was 20 years of my life and on the outside, looking back, despite the problems I've had, it was a good life but now I'm beginning as who I've always been on the inside, my name is Emma, I am 21 years old, and life... is going to be interesting. Thank you and I love everyone, except for a few... but let's start over again. Emma <3
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We can all drive safely... it's the other fucks on the road that you have to worry about...
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If you were to get VDM'd, who would get banned, the quadbike, the ISP, ArmA Developers, or you?
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Flameless.... NOOOOO!!!!
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That truck hates Kavala as much as I do...
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You did what now???
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Once Dokkaebi s fully implemented, any Valk cameras placed in the OBJ room while I'm defending will be promptly riddled with bullets
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#SqueakerPatrol!
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I hope this isn't too late, I understand that most of the former development team, Alan and Paratus have devoted their time to Identity because let's be honest, that game is their own IP and has a chance of being successful if they do everything right... anyhoot, I'm afraid that their absence and the lack of content might drive players away from both this community, most recently, a well known member, Google left and that's pretty serious. Veteran players are packing their bags and going to other servers and that might trickle down into purchasing Identity itself, why invest in a game when the devs of the Asylum servers jumped ship after the next up and coming thing. It could be viewed as a vicious cycle of repetition that might taint the reputation of Asylum Entertainment, even before their first big release. Unfortunately, players ask for the world when it comes to ArmA Asylum, they want new this and new that but new content is hard to add when the map size limits you. Altis isn't New York City and you don't want hundreds of locations stack upon one another as it causes more problems and then solves the few that cry for more rebel locations and more cartel locations. Granted, small updates, periodically, with tiny fixes wouldn't exactly freshen up the game itself, but make people release that, "Hey, they do give a shit about Joe Blow's request to add this in, and the idea he proposed gained a lot of support and they implemented it in, wonder what I should request?" While development teams don't hire people with the simple job title of "Idea person," this community is full of them, and some might even have the ability to offer their talents to implement some of the ideas they ask for. The bottom line is this, I don't want Asylum to burn their bridges by abandoning the project that bought the community together, full of hyper active squeakers and people who can snipe my ass from across the map (Fuck all you bastards by the way). We're friends, we're enemies, we're that awkward stage in between where you don't know if you want to kick someone's head in or give them a hug... That's all, I just hope now, that if this fix works and BattleEye unfucks itself, I hope to see new content, even if it's small updates here and there. A new gun, some new clothing, small scripts or this and that, new locations that may be reworked and tweaked, just something that says, "Hey, we didn't forget all of you and take your money to help pay for the servers and the upcoming Identity release. Toodles!
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Good luck, long life, see you in Identity
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You're not in a sense, locked to one server, you're just unable to use the Precincted slots on other servers. So I can be a corporal on Server 1, use the designated slots, etc. However, I am allowed to go on to server 2-4 if I so choose, I just lose those special slots
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https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thanatos This guy?
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Not for nothing, I like this! #Durga4Developer
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I have about 50/50 depending on the time of day, also, it seems pretty easy to get someone's IP address now a days, but to be safe, post a picture of a gun that you own so people know not to fuck with you!
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Welcome to EU Ethernet!
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That second dumbass tripped and fell because his pants were falling down Hell, it seems like most of them are suffering from lack of belts
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If this was implemented, I do agree with the price increase as well as a smaller timer than the regular downing timer. Perhaps 10-15 seconds so it's more of a stun grenade than an all out downing grenade in a sense of you have to wait 1 minute until you come to.